She's Alive

Yes, indeed I am still very much alive and well with pictures from today. I have stacks upon stacks of pictures to share, ideas to put into words and motivation for all kinds of projects. So what's the problem?

Well, TIME! I have no time... At this moment, I am trying to complete my first year of my Master's
degree, survive and occasionally also sleep. There is very little time for those things that used to be so precious to me. I can barely manage to do my nails, which used to be a very basic thing for me. Sure at the same time I have become much more efficient with the time that I do have, and am somewhat better at prioritizing. Yet still most days I feel like the day has gone by and I didn't do anything just for myself and relaxation. I guess its just one of those things that belongs to this part of my life, and I can enjoy my free time when I'm old and grey but boy is it exhausting all the same.

On a positive note, yes there is such a thing, I am happier than ever. Sure at times I feel a tad lonely, since I don't have much time for friends either hope they still exist, but most of my days go by in a flash and when my head hits the pillow I feel content. Its like this saying about finding something you never thought you wanted, what I have now is something I didn't really think about that much before but I am glad my life shaped out like this. I have to say, since graduating high school my life has gone more on the flow rather than according to a master plan. I guess thats why I relate to this quote:

"Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans"

At this moment my biggest concern is my Master's thesis, that yes I am already forced to think about and write but I suspect that there is a good reason for that. Its probably also one of the reasons I am back here, I'm trying to enhance my writing skills again. Of course writing academic English is a tad different than maintaining a blog, but at least getting used to the momentum and amount required would be nice. Also I suspect I have way too much bottled up in my mind, in the form of little projects that I want to complete, so I feel I need a place to unload all the excess of thought from my brain here. This could of course mean that at times, my texts will be so out of my mind that they will be hard to follow but its a calculated risk I am willing to take. So to anyone reading this, I'm not as crazy and sad as I seem, I just have a lot on my mind. Also I am quite aware that I have been off and on again kinda blogger for quite some time, but hopefully I can establish a better allocation of time for this little hobby of mine as its still always on my mind.

Wedding Look

Its June already?? Are you kidding me, haha. So much has happened yet it feels like time stands still and then suddenly you snap out of it and realize how much time has passed. Have to say my stress levels are suddenly higher, the approaching wedding makes me nervous.

Anyway I came quickly to post these pics to show off my wedding make up, well not the real one but a trial round. I thought I wanted something really natural but in the end I wanted something more dramatic. Its your wedding day, at least one day you can look different than normal. I'm really happy with this though when Panda saw it he laughed at me. Men really don't know how to react, luckily he said that I look good just if he hadn't seen it before the wedding he might have thought he went to the wrong wedding. :D

Now I just can't wait for the actual day, and well have to figure out what to do with my hair. Especially those nasty little ones. More to come soon ;)

Shades of White

Happy Midsummer! So wow where have the days gone? Time just speeds on by and I don't even notice. In a way I don't mind but also I just want to enjoy all the little things. In a way I have had plenty of time to read blogs and intake inspiration but have limited time to actually to create. It really makes me sad but I guess it's just about time management. It's the battle between the me I used to be and the me I am today. I'm still learning and hopefully I can keep learning all my life.

This has been an interesting post to write, I have been writing it during three different times so what I want to tell has changed several times. We changed our car and I had my bachelorette party, but now all I can think about is midsummer and sauna.

Anyway we had to change our car to a bigger one. It was much more emotional than I was ready for, even though I have been preparing for this for a year.. I had eight great years with my little car so its no wonder, but I suspect that if I had kept it longer it would have broken down on me. Its not really realistic to fit into a two door car with three people. So now I have a shiny white car in the yard, I hate white in cars but I guess I will just learn to love it. I hadn't even realized how old my car was until I saw all the new cool tech in this newest version. I'm just in aww over it, and I think the color is even growing on me. There are also posts about the wedding coming up, hopefully before the actual wedding day.. Yaay it's so close, finally!

I'm so in love with this lace shirt from Bik Bok but it seems to make me look so big, white has this effect on me. Also notice my absolutely clean hair, haha I wanted to take these pics coz I had my super nice wedding trial makeup on but didn't have time to wash my hair before. I also can't believe how much tiny new hair I have coming out in the front, some people say this is some kind of breastfeeding effect? Dunno but its bothering me, can't wear my hair on the side anymore :D 

Light purple dreams

You know that feeling when you notice that your favorite pair of jeans is torn? Sure if the tear is for example on the knee it doesn't really matter but the crotch! That is the worst. No actually the worst is to find out BOTH of your favorite jeans are torn in the crotch. Luckily I've been able to find some instructions on how to fix it discreetly so I have yet another thing on my to do list. I think my to do list keeps growing more than I can take things out of it. haha.

So in the meanwhile I had to figure out something else to wear, I did consider buying a new pair of blue jeans but inspired by a few bloggers and some pinterest pins I went in search of colorful jeans. I found some from Bik Bok and had trouble choosing a color so I got a dark purple and coral. I haven't yet matched the coral pants with anything. I have been waiting from warmer weather. The dark puprle ones were easier to incorporate during this weather and this is how I looked. I have to say I'm quite satisfied with these pants, BUT the material seems to gather all kinds of dirt escpesially hair! My hair is going through a stage of falling out so I'm picking out the hairs all the time. My light brown or dark blond hairs are quite visible in the dark purple pants. Though in the first pics of it they look more burgundy than purple. 

I guess this is that "hey take a pic of my accessories" pic, haha. Not to mention my uneven fingernails. Haha this is as real as it gets. 

Looking back at these pictures I have to wonder what is up with my hair? It was a windy day but still I really should book an appointment to a hairdresser. Sure I have been trying to grow them longer but my hair is so thin, though I have plenty but it just won't grow evenly through out the length. I have no idea what is up with that. Maybe I need some kind of supplements or maybe I don't drink enough water, etc. I only wash my hair twice a week at most and use a lot of oil, so I doubt its the products I use. Anyway I have been thinking about getting extensions for the wedding, but we will see what happens. 

Cause I'm happy...

So I have to say my blog year hasn't quite started off how I wanted, but that's the way the cookie crumbles. I would say it's all just an adjustment period for the new way my life is though even this keeps changing as the little one grows. Everyday is a new day, new challenge, new routine. I have to say you don't really appreciate the life you had until it's gone. Like I have no idea how I could have wasted so much time in the past. I can get things done now in such a short nap time, yet then again somedays I'm just so tired I can barely stand not to mention accomplish anything. Most days there is no nap time, so much for that me time then, I guess any mother can relate to me in this. It's not like I don't have plenty of picture material for the blog, it's just that I don't have time to edit and write. My head is bursting with ideas not just for pictures, but also for DIY projects like sewing a dress or knitting a blanket etc.. Also all the wedding stuff I should do and post, not to mention I should work out more. Time is just so limited. Sounding a tad stressed, aren't I? I'm just praying for a little more time per day, aren't we all?

All in all I wouldn't change a thing, well maybe a little bit more sleep? Haha. Yet I'm much happier now than ever before, even in my darkest hour I find comfort in the tiny little hands of my little tiger though I should remember to file down those claws. Haha. Anyway life should get easier along the way, just have to keep it togehter.. In the mean while here's some birds flying around my head :)